1.88B: Something Positive

I suppose I could have ended 2014 in a somber manner, but even I couldn’t deny that there were some positive moments amidst the negativity expressed within my previous update.

For starters, I became close acquaintance with a couple of coworkers.  We frequently have dinner, watch movies and plan trips together.  In September of 2015, we are going to be going to Dragon Con for the entire weekend and we are actually staying at one of the host hotels—that’s crazy cool.

Speaking of movies, I had the opportunity to go see a number of really incredible and some not so incredible films this past year.  I’m not sure how to explain it, but there is just something special about watching a movie in a theater that I really enjoy.

I also, thanks to the aforementioned acquaintances from above, was able to really get into comic books (or more accurately, graphic novels).  Aside from going to Dragon Con, my acquaintances and I went to two Atlanta Comic Conventions where I had an opportunity to purchase some cool graphic novels at great prices.  Along with the conventions, we made trips to comic shops and they gave me the motivation to go ahead make a commitment to be more engaged in the comic community.

Also, in 2014, I found myself in position longer than any other position I have ever held.  Two-plus years in the library and despite the individuals I referenced in my previous update, I truly enjoy the actual job.  I can almost certainly say that I can see myself as a librarian for the foreseeable future.  As for whether or not, I plan on going back to school to earn a MLS degree—it is still up in the air.

Anyway, 2014 has had a number of ups and downs. I first give you the downs and now, the ups—all I can do now is wait to see what the upcoming year has in store for me.  It seems truly cliché and a bit overplayed, but see you next year and (I have forgotten this for some time) DFTBA.

1.188: Lessons from 2014

In a matter of a few hours, 2014 will end and 2015 will begin and with the close of every year, I thought I would take some time to discuss some of the lessons I have learned from the past year.

Lesson #1:

I don’t have to like you personally in order for me to work with you, but if you prove to be a burden on me or your other coworkers; then I will truly resent you.  For the better part of the latter part of the year, I have found myself growing increasingly frustrated by a growing number of my coworkers and while I still enjoy my job; I’m slowly growing out of like with many of my peers.  From blatant laziness to outright subversion, I’m learning that the number of coworkers I can trust are far fewer than the ones I mistrust.  Perhaps, it is my own fault that I have lowered my guard around these individuals, but at the same time; I am trying my hardest to get on with my peers.  In truth, I believe in the year ahead, I am going to have to reexamine my workplace relationships and adjust my handling of certain coworkers.  I realize that this sounds horrid, but if I am to advance my own goals; I am going to have to stay ahead of the game.

Lesson #2

Always manage one’s expectations because more often than not, managed expectations will lead to pleasant surprises when one’s expectations are met or exceeded.  The finest example of this lesson from the past year would be the Carolina Panthers.  Going into the season many experts picked the defending NFC South Division Champions to finish third in the division behind Atlanta and New Orleans and look at what happened:  the Panthers repeated as division winners with a 7-8-1 (they didn’t even have a winning record!)  The same could be said of Manchester United.  Sure, there were some hardcore supporters that always select the Red Devils to win the Premier League, but given the results of the previous campaign and the changing of the guard (yet again) at the managerial position and one could easily say that they would need at least one campaign if not two to gather their footing and return to the form that supporters are accustomed to seeing.  But, look at the Red Devils:  they sit in third place and are favorites to return to the UEFA Champions League during the next campaign.  All of these things were a pleasant surprise because I managed my expectations and kept them reasonable in my opinion.

Lesson #3

I’m going to be lonely for the remainder of my life and I will die alone.  In truth, everyone dies alone—you may die at approximately the same time, but the end result is that you pass on from this life alone and you return to stars alone or from a psychological standpoint (is it psychological?); you’re no longer conscious of whether or not you’re alone.  Anyway, that’s not the point I was getting at in this lesson.  Basically, I’m going to be a single male for the rest of my life.  I’m 31 years old and to date I have been in no meaningful relationships and the only physical relationship I’ve been a party to was just physical.  For anyone that has read a decent number of my updates, you would know that for some time now I had been smitten with a coworker, Emily, and despite my many vague and veiled attempts to gauge her thoughts on me; I have come to the conclusion that my adoration for her is unrequited.  In truth, at one point, she was becoming such a distraction that in for me to move on; I needed to loathe her and that may still be the way to go about it.  I can’t deny that I still hold on to my unrequited feelings, but I slowly accepting that I need to let it go by any means necessary.  Now, this isn’t to say that Emily was the only person for me—I’m most certain she isn’t—but I’m just not interested in playing this game though I was never really an active participant.  I’ve been hurt on a number of occasions and truthfully, I hate feeling shitty about myself unless I’m the one inflicted the anguish.

Anyway, those are the lessons I have learned from the past year.  If they sound depressing, it is because they are depressing.  I’m not always a miserable individual, but it does seem as though a significant segment of my life is mired in some sort of negativity.  But, on a more positive note, I do persevere and continue to exist.  Perhaps, things will change in the New Year, but given my track record; I wouldn’t count on it.

1.187: Shite Movie Review #9

The Imitation Game

For months, I had been anticipating the wide theatrical release of The Imitation Game in America and this past weekend I finally had my opportunity to see the film; here are my thoughts:

To be frank, a biographical film about an English mathematician would not sound like riveting cinema, but when the mathematician being present is (1) commonly regarded as the father of computers and (2) largely responsible for decoding the German Enigma machine, at the time, an encryption device thought impossible to crack, thus aiding Allied forces conclude the Second World War an estimated two-years early (and in the process, possibly saving 14 million lives); it sort of piques one’s interest—at least, it piqued my interest.  Also, the fact that the mathematician, Alan Turing, would be portrayed by Benedict Cumberbatch and in my opinion, you have the potential for a fantastic movie.

Speaking of Mr. Cumberbatch, his portrayal of Alan Turing was superb, but it could be said that Mr. Cumberbatch is experienced in portraying socially-awkward geniuses.  His performance was such that I was able to not only endure particularly “embarrassing” scenes, but I was able to enjoy them and I found myself relating to Turing’s social ineptitude.  Perhaps, I am speaking of Mr. Cumberbatch with a biased perspective, but I am only biased because he continues to provide remarkable performances.

Now, the intriguing plot and the superb performance of the lead should be more enough for me to say:  “Yes, this film is entirely worth the price of admission,” but the film’s underlying message of sexual equality—Turing was gay and despite his efforts during the war (much of which remained classified long after his passing), he was charged and found guilty of indecency and his punishment was chemical castration, which ultimately led to him taking his own life at the age of 41—was yet another positive in the movie’s direction.  Truthfully, this same message may serve to deter certain right-wing religious zealots from seeing this movie and that is a shame because Turing’s story is one that should be known.

Anyway, as I alluded to previously, this film is certainly worth the price of admission and if you have an opportunity to see this fantastic depiction of the life of a man that has so immensely affected our world, then please go and see it.

1.186: Shite Movie Review #8

Top Five

Of all of the movies I have seen during this recent spell of movie outings, Top Five was above and beyond my favorite viewing experience.  Admittedly, the plot was rather predictable, but Top Five was more about the journey rather than the destination and the journey was both humorous and touching.  But, it must be said that one should have some grasp on hip-hop culture in order to truly understand the touching moments and to enjoy many of the humorous moments.  In other words, Top Five may not appeal to certain segments of our society that view the hip-hop culture in a negative matter or black culture in general, which is disheartening because I found Top Five to be so enjoyable.

Anyways, there are number of fantastic cameos from a number of established and upcoming stand-up comedians and to be frank; this was probably the funniest Adam Sandler has been in some time.  Honestly, I shouldn’t have to say it, but yes, Top Five was worth the price of admission and if you are looking for a good laugh during the holiday season and don’t mind some raunchiness (because there are a couple sequences that involve nudity), then I would highly recommend Top Five.

1.185: Shite Movie Review #7

The Hobbit:  The Battle of the Five Armies

At long last, the saga of Middle-Earth draws to a close (or at least until Peter Jackson ascertains the film rights to The Silmarillion), but was the final third of The Hobbit trilogy worth the price of admission?  To be frank:  No.  Now, I will say that if you have already invested the time and money in seeing the first two Hobbit movies, then yes, go and finish the trilogy because that sort of investment should not be wasted.  If you have not seen the first two movies, then I would recommend waiting until its DVD / Blu-Ray release and when you have a day; marathon the films (if you feel inclined to watch the series).

In truth, I could have done without The Hobbit trilogy because (1) it should not have been a trilogy and (2) there was no need for a prequel.  Certainly, there was plenty of splendid scenery to behold and a few fun battle sequences, but it was not enough to warrant splitting the shortest book of the Middle-Earth saga into three parts.  Personally, I enjoyed the Lord of the Rings series and was excited when it was reported that Jackson would be returning to Middle-Earth for The Hobbit, but now; I wish Jackson would have simply left it at The Return of the King.

1.184: Shite Movie Review #6

Birdman or (The Unexpected Virtue of Ignorance)

The hype was real—seven Golden Globe nominations (including Best Picture, Musical or Comedy), four Screen Actors Guild Awards nomination (including Best Ensemble), etc.—and the hype was met.  From the matter in which the movie was filmed to the incredible drum score, Birdman was definitely deserving of the accolades and plaudits it has received and I would highly recommend seeing the movie unless artistic, critically-acclaimed movies are not your cup of tea.

A lot can be said or has already been said about the parallel between Michael Keaton’s actual career and the career of the character he portrays in Birdman, but attempting to make such a comparison goes far and beyond the realm of a shite movie reviewer like me.  What I will say is that I enjoyed the performances of Keaton, Edward Norton, Emma Stone and Zach Galifianakis and I was intrigued by the ambiguity of whether or not Keaton’s character actually possessed “powers” or if these moments were merely a manifestation of his deteriorating mental state.

Personally, I would like to believe in the former, but it is most likely the latter—either way works.  As for whether the film was worth the price of admission—$8 for a matinee screening—the answer is a definite affirmative. In fact, I would have willingly paid full adult admission for an evening screening of Birdman.

1.183: Shite Movie Review #5

The Hunger Games:  Mockingjay - Part I

In truth, I had much more to say this review of Mockingjay – Part I, but the more I thought about it; the more I came to realize that I simply did not like it.  Sure, there were some high points that provide a glimmer of hope for the second part, but my preconceived notions developed from reading The Hunger Games trilogy were too much to be ignored.  If you saw the first two films, then I will say this of Mockingjay – Part I:  it was better than its predecessors, but it still does not mean you should invest the money to see it in a theater, especially, when there are far better options.  Wait for this to be released on DVD or, better yet, Netflix and then hope that part two carries on the positive wave of part one.  Was Mockingjay – Part I worth the price of admission?  No.

1.171

To be frank, I'm not pleased with the direction this site has taken.  Some of the issues I have with this site are:

It lacks a formal format.  (Example:  When I post from my smartphone, none of the posts are justified.)

It's no longer aesthetically pleasing.

It is inconsistent in describing itself. (Example:  Is it a site or a blog? Is it a post or an update? And so forth)

I'm not posting consistently.

The titles for posts (or updates) are not uniformed. (Example: Long format or short format? Subtitle or no subtitle?)

Honestly, it feels as though I'm straying from a path while at the same time; not even knowing what that path is.

I want to make this a pleasant experience for not just visitors, but primarily for myself, so that I will be encouraged to continue forward.

All I ever do nowadays is whine and complain and while it is a fair reflection of my actual demeanor; I still don't like it.

Anyway, I need to work on finding a way to salvage this while at the same time maintaining simple routine of publishing (or posting) updates (or posts).

1.161: The ranting continues

I'm not sure why but I'm in a particularly vocal (or as vocal as drafting an update permits) mood this evening and I have a few more things I would like to get off my chest before I call it a night.

1) People can call me a control freak, a dictator, or just plain stubborn and they would be correct.  I hate being out of control and I despise being held hostage to the whims of others, but there is an explanation for my controlling nature:  I want shit done and I want it done right.

Here's the issue: one of my coworkers is an indolent imbecile that is nothing but a hindrance to others around her.  The shear levels of laziness exhibited by this individual is on another level and yet, she fails to realize this fact herself.

Seriously, on a recent employee evaluation, she was dumped upon with multiple examples of her obvious and blatant laziness and her most vocal complaint dealt with issues of personal phone calls while on the clock. Really?

This woman doesn't even deny her ineffectiveness and lack of productivity!

All I expect from my coworkers is that they do their jobs and fulfill the expectations and responsibilities of their position.  If you can do that simple task, then I am good with you.

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Actually, that is all for now. I may come back with a few more complaints later.

1.160: The struggle is real

I'm going to try this again, but this time I'm going straight in and I'm not pulling punches.  First off, fuck the grand jury that permitted yet another police officer off the hook for killing another black man.  And second, fuck my white coworkers for being oblivious to their white privilege.  Look, I'll admit it: I'm Asian and as far as minorities in America goes, we're doing okay. But, that doesn't mean I'm getting a free pass on the race train.  I've been fortunate that the amount of ignorant, racist shit I've encountered in my life is minimal in comparison to my counterparts of black or Latino heritage, but it happens and for the most part; I brush off.

Now, some (myself included) will say that I'm whitewashed and that I'm a fake Asian, but fuck you! I may have primarily white friends and enjoy white activities, but that is more a product of the environment than the fact that I'm any less of a minority; I'm whitewashed not white.  Honestly, attempting to explain white privilege to individuals that received the majority of their news from FOX or sites like Drudge is similar to ramming one's head into a brick wall--the wall will remain standing, but you'll be left bloodied and mangled.  Earlier this evening, I sat as I listened to three of my white coworkers defend the excessive actions of these overzealous police officers.  In the Ferguson case, Michael Brown was a thug that was behaving like punk and that meant he deserved to be shot to death multiple times while the shooter didn't even deserve to stand trial.  In the case of Eric Garner, the police was right to utilize a banned maneuver in subduing a large black male for illegally selling cigarettes on a street corner.  In Cleveland, where a twelve year old black child was killed by a white police officer, the officer had to defend himself from a twelve year old with a realistic looking Airsoft gun.  And in the grand scheme of things, the reason for all of this is, according to my lazy ass, imbecile departmental coworker, rap music and the fact that it perpetuates violence (-.-*). OMFG!

Honestly, I want to say I like my coworkers, but moments like this really aggravate for a couple of reasons: (1) because they're oblivious idiots and (2) I'm the fucking tool that let's shit like this be spoken because I'm to slow-witted to appropriately retort at the moment.  So there, some this anger is about me, but a lot more of it is about how ignorant and simple-minded certain white people are in regards to race relations.  As the viral hashtag goes: #BlackLivesMatter despite what grand juries, the media and my coworkers want to believe.

My god I hope this makes some sense because this off the cuff writing style is the sort of shit I try so hard to avoid because of my undiagnosed OCD.

1.159

I'm good for nothing!  I can't even rant effectively.  I've just spent the past two hours drafting a rant about my coworkers and the ineptitude of the library system's administrators and it's come to nothing because I can't get my shit together and now I've run out steam.

I sincerely believe I'm getting dumber or I may have never been as smart as I think I am.

1.158

I hate drafting posts.

Actually, I’m indifferent about the actual drafting process—it is my obsessive compulsiveness that tends to cause many of the issues I have with drafting and publishing updates.  For reasons beyond my understanding, I often find myself in positions in which I will scrap an entire update simply because the text appears unsymmetrical.  Personally, it is not about the words and what is being said; it is about how it appears.

I wish I could get over this issue, but it is difficult.

1.150: A Hero for Dannie

I attended my second Atlanta Comic Convention (ACC) today and despite the wet and dreary weather, I enjoyed myself and I believe my coworkers enjoyed the event too.  I never have much of a budget for these types of events and I never have any plan for buying (unlike fellow attendees that come prepared with notebooks of missing single issues), but I did manage to purchase the first volume of The Movement.  To be honest, I'm not too familiar with the series beyond the fact that Gail Simone wrote it until it was cancelled, but I really didn't purchase the item because of I was interested in the plot.  Instead, I purchased it because it features a character named Katharsis (A/K/A Kulap Vilaysack), a winged character with exceptional strength and sword skills, who happens to be of Lao origin--making her (as for as I'm aware) the first Lao American superhero (or villain--her first appearance was as an antagonist in Batgirl) featured in a major comic series.

Personally, I think this is rather cool considering the only other Lao characters of any sort of renown in mainstream media are the Souphanosinphone family from King of the Hill.  Of course, Katharsis may never reach the same level of notoriety as Khan and Khan Jr., but it is remarkable that the media is beginning to recognize individuals from the small landlocked country in Southeast Asia.  And another cool thing about Katharsis is that she could serve as a character in which young Lao girls, like my two year old cousin Dannie, can look towards and say:  "She's Lao like me!"  I guess it's my hope that I can use Katharsis as means to inspire my little cousin that she be more because, believe me when I say this, she has a lot going against her.

Anyway, aside from the ACC, my coworkers and I stopped by Titan Comics in Gwinnett where I actually ending up spending more money there than at the ACC because that's what happens when one has sporadic relationship with comics throughout much of his life and has just now discovered that he may want to take this hobby a bit more seriously.  Also, it's what happens when one focuses primarily on newer titles and volumes of a series.

Regardless, today was good and I do look forward to the next ACC and my next visit to my local comic book shop.

1.147

Psychologically, I am in a bad place.  I would not say that I am depressed, but I am certainly not happy.  I want to say that this feeling is the result of the malaise I feel about my job, but I am almost certain that this is not the case.  In fact, I would say this feeling of discontent stems from the possibility of another coworker stealing attention away from me (i.e., I may be jealous).  Then again, my emotional state may be the result of my unwillingness to improve my own situation despite knowing it is necessary.

Regardless of the reason, I understand that there is something that needs to be changed if I am going to be able maintain my sanity.

1.146

I struggle to identify new topics to discuss and when I am unable to generate a topic, I am less incline to post.

So, I have decided to use a random topic generator to assist me in selecting topics of discussions for John Past 30.

Topic 1:  Chinese art and culture

I am unfamiliar with Chinese art and culture, but that does not mean I am not interested in knowing more about the topic.  Of course, being of Southeast Asian decent could mean that many of my daily rituals may already run similar to the culture of certain parts of China.  I suppose there is much more that could be stated in regards to this topic, but attempting to do so with such limited knowledge seems counterproductive.

Topic 2:  Learning to play keyboard

I have always wanted to learn to play a musical instrument and there was even a moment when I tried to learn to play the piano, but that phase has since come and gone.  In truth, my lack of interest in learning to play the keyboard stems from the instrument's lack of mobility; I would much prefer to learn how to play the ukulele.

I believe I will call it day on this possible new feature to JP30. Perhaps, next time, I will not approach this so half-assed.

1.145: Shite Movie Review #4

I really want to take a nostalgic trip down memory lane, but for the sake of brevity and directness, I will say the following:

YES! Dumb and Dumber To is worth the ticket if you, like myself, grew up with the original film.

To be frank, I believe this film is worth the price of admission if you can lower your comedic taste down a notch.

I want to say more, but it is 10 PM and for some reason, I am struggling to stay awake.  But, go and watch the film, especially, if you were a 90s child.

1.138: Shite Movie Review #3

NOTE:  I can't believe how long it's been since my last "#ShiteMovieReview" (#SMR), but the past few months have seen "the films I want to see" cupboard run bare.  Fortunately, the Fall/Holiday movie season is here and I'm hoping to have more #SMR in the works over the next few weeks as there are a number of movies I plan on seeing.  Anyways, let's go!

Interstellar

I think I liked Interstellar though I'm not quite certain why I like the film.  Of course, the actual question to be answered here is:  Was it worth it?  To be frank, I'd say YES.  For starters, the movie runs 2 hours, 49 minutes--if that isn't bang for your buck, then I don't know what is.  Second, I did appreciate the underlying messages of the film:  stop rejecting science, fund space exploration and invest in face masks.

My primary objection to Interstellar was its resolution--it felt rushed (or as rushed as a nearly three hour feature permits) and it was a bit of stretch even for its genre.  Aside from the awkward resolution and lingering conclusion, I still enjoyed the film (I think) or that is at least what I have been telling my coworkers when they ask me.

Year 1, Day 132

Tonight was disappointing.  From a political standpoint, it seemed inevitable.  At best, Democrats could delay the Republican onslaught until January.  From a personal standpoint, tonight’s results do not represent a step forward for Democrats in this increasingly backwards state.

At the top of the ticket, the Democratic Party of Georgia put forth two of its best:  Michelle Nunn, the daughter of former Senator Sam Nunn and the former head of one of the largest non-profit organizations in this country, and Jason Carter, the grandson of former President Jimmy Carter and a bright and rising star within the Democratic Party at multiple levels.  And both lost, most likely by double-digit figures, to two individuals with less than appealing character traits—one who is ethically-challenged and the other who is apathetic toward the plight of the lives he has crushed simply to turn a quick buck.

In my opinion, the results from tonight are a clear demonstration that regardless of the candidate or the grassroots organization; Georgia will remain a “red” state for the foreseeable future because its electorate is composed of ignorant bigots that hate the idea of a colored POTUS and continues to believe that a woman’s rightful place is in the home.

So, what happens now?  I don’t really know.  But, if I were in charge:

1. Raise $94,400 (i.e. – the cost to qualify 236 “candidates” for legislative office—I think
2. Identify courageous, thick-skinned and vocal individuals to serve as “candidates”
3. Research every Republican incumbent and identify three character flaws to attack them on it, relentlessly

Some will say it’s a waste of money, but basically, my plan is fuck with Republicans—just annoy the fuck out of them.  It may not win any seats—it most likely won’t win any seats, but it would be hilarious and serve as a clear example that Democrats can get down and dirty in the Georgia red clay too.

Year 1, Day 128

Earlier today, I saw a video posted onto Facebook that showed members of the local HS football team entering the field and then "voluntarily" participating in a group prayer.

First off, let me just say that none of those kids did that voluntarily--there may not have been an announcement or a visible adult telling them to go and pray upon entering the stadium--but these kids did not come up with this idea on their own.

Sports in the south is inundated with needless references to the Christian faith: from scripture used as inspirational quotes to taking a knee for an injured player.

These kids--these teenagers--had this idea (like most every other idea teenagers have) planted in their heads. Teenagers are impressionable and (while they will never admit it) easily persuaded by authority (by this I mean, their actions are always a response to an authority figure's action whether that be in adherence to in opposition to).

The second thing that irked me about this post was the comment made by the poster that made it sound as though these teenagers were some sort of saints for having the courage to take part in the prayer. WRONG! It doesn't take courage to follow a large group of people--it takes courage to do what's right. It would have been far more difficult for player to not have participated because of the amount of grief they would have received for it.

And on another point, these teenagers aren't saints or heroes--they're teens and unless we have become blinded by age and having our heads stuck so far up our on asses; we were teenagers once too. And I don't know about you, when I was a teen, all I was worried about were girls, fun and how awesome it would be to be out on my own--I was on the straight and boring path of teenage existence. But these jocks, after the games, they were about sex, drugs and parties not Bible study, prayer circles and living the word.

Basically, what I'm getting at is that these kids weren't being brave, they were being hypocrites and these parents or adults that are trying to use them as some sort of message aren't spreading the word; they're willfully feigning ignorance of their own past.

Year 1, Day 125

First, congratulations to the San Francisco Giants for winning the World Series.

Second, congratulations to the Kansas City Royals for a remarkable season.

Outside of the Atlanta Braves, I don't follow baseball and in a few years--once the Braves "white flight" out of downtown Atlanta and into the suburbs of Cobb County--my interest in the sport will more than likely dwindle to nothing.

Year 1, Day 123

While the boss is away, I will do my best to keep things running as smoothly as possible.  I understand that there are times in which I lose focus and I become less productive, but these moments are just moments and I can usually rediscover my groove.  To be honest, the typical work day is rather mundane and of very little interest to others, but I continue to move forward.

Year 1, Day 122

Today was pleasant.  I watched soccer, I watched football (of the American variety), I ate at my favorite local Chinese buffet, and I had an Oreo blizzard.  The weather was fantastic and...well, that was about it.

To be frank, I wish I had been more productive.  I still need to read a handful of graphic novels and the copy of Black Belt Librarians I borrowed from Jeanne via Lisa as well as prepare the kiosk presentations for the upcoming week, draft the desk schedule for the upcoming week, and formulate a proposal to turn the IT department head position from a position that I am currently totally unqualified for into a position that I have some qualifications for.

Also, I need to do the laundry, figure out which manga and DVDs I want to donate to the library and wish my friend, Mark, a happy birthday.  And I need to do all of this before I run out of steam, which is much sooner than later.

Anyway, I hope that I can get this stuffed panned out before tomorrow.

Year 1, Day 119

I suppose at times I can be as chatty as a teenage girl.  Anyways, a conversation with a friend caused me to miss posting yesterday (Day 118) so I am going to post something before I call it a night.

For obvious reasons, I have recently become enthralled by the lovely April O'Neil (pictured below).

Source:  April O'Neil Instagram (heyitsaprilagain)

There is a lot to be said about an adult entertainer that takes her stage name from one of your animated childhood crushes and is, as demonstrated in the proceeding photograph, a fellow Whovian. On top of these things, she is a noted gamer, a cosplayer (again, demonstrated above), a comic book reader and an all-around interesting individual.

Anyways, I thought it was important that I share my latest infatuation and think of me what you will, but I am simply a man with desires and at this time; my desires are to learn more about this remarkable woman via SFW and NSFW means.

Year 1, Day 117

To be honest, I'm lacking in the area of possible topics to discuss this evening, but I'm giving it (posting an update) a goal anyways.

It could be said of me that whenever a grand opportunity presents itself before me, I will be the first to find some way to bypass it.

Today, the library posted the job opening for the position of IT Department Director and while my colleagues in Circulation believe that I would make an excellent option for the position; my own internal self doubts that strongly.

Yes, I can do basic things on a computer and with direction, I can piece things together (when I'm in the mood), but it is the complicated things like actually putting together a network, maintaining that network and other IT-related responsibilities that scares me.

In truth, I could always make plans to learn this stuff, but actually executing it is the main issue. I'm a visionary with no willingness to make that vision reality.

I will have to contemplate on this issue hard, but I know in my heart of hearts that I'm not ready nor am I sure that I ever will be.

Year 1, Day 116

Well, not quite Day 116 since I'm posting this a little before 5 AM and the day has yet to "start."

Anyways, I'm unable to fall back asleep and so I thought that I'd take this time to actually post something since my postings have become more and more sporadic.

As for my Anime Weekend Atlanta recap, I do plan on completing that at some point though it'll be more difficult as time passes. (You know what they say about human memory: it's crap.)

I haven't been to a movie in a while so there haven't been any "Shite Movie Reviews", but the fall / winter movie season is upon us and there are some movies I'm interested in seeing. Hopefully, we'll get back on track with that soon rather than later.

If you couldn't guess, I'm on the iPhone again, but sometimes you have to work with what you have.

I'm going to have to wrap this up soon since it appears as though I'm running out of space on the Blogger app, but know that I haven't forgotten about this blog it's just that I'm lazy.

Year 1, Day 101

A week has passed since the close of Anime Weekend Atlanta (AWA) and I find myself within the grasp of one of my worst bouts with con withdrawal in recent memory.  For the uninitiated, con withdrawal is the feeling of malaise one has after being ripped viciously from one’s convention “family and friends” and being thrown back into the “reality” of what is one’s “normal” and mundane life.  I may have exaggerated a bit, but I think I have expressed my point poignantly.

Anyway, I know that I have yet to write anything about the convention despite stating that I may do so during the convention, but volunteering at an all-volunteer run convention that hosted 20,000+ attendees made that more difficult than I imagined.  So, here now is a rundown of my AWA in as close to chronological order as possible:

Friday:

I arrived about a half-hour before the start of my first shift and prior to retrieving my staff badge holder and badge, I came across a younger cousin and his girlfriend; it was the only time I saw him during the weekend.

My first assignment was assisting with the line for the Grand Opening ceremonies.  The line was big, we had to “snake” the line three-fold, and it was without a doubt, the largest line for an event that I worked during AWA.

Following the clearing of the Grand Opening line, I was assigned to badge check at the Kennesaw panel room for a panel about anime references in mainstream pop culture (I think).  Of course, my first panel of the day would not go off without a hitch and that hitch: the panelists were unable to operate the soundboard.  Since I refused to take on a supervisory role, I had no means of contacting Tech staff (i.e. – I had no walkie-talkie on hand) and I needed to track down this section’s supervisor, which I eventually did.  At that point, I was assigned to organize the line for my first guest panel of the convention, a Q&A session with Scott McNeil.  In truth, organizing the line was rather simplistic and I was able to make my exit before the trouble arose.  In case you were wondering, the Q&A did not take place Friday nor did Mr. McNeil’s autograph session because Mr. McNeil had not yet arrived at the convention.  Apparently, he was caught up in the mess at the Chicago airport and had his flight cancelled; he did eventually make it to AWA and was very generous with what time he had left.

From Section 4(?), I was then assigned to Section 5(?) (AKA Autographs) since my assigned Section 2 was not needed.  My first autograph line assignment was Home Made Kazoku (HMK), a Japanese hip-hop trio known for tracks that served as the opening and closing themes for popular anime series like Naruto and Bleach.  For Japanese guests at the convention, the instructions were simple:  90-person limit, one item autographed and no photographs.  HMK did not hit their limit, which was disappointing in my eyes, but I think the AWA attendees more than made up for it during their Saturday evening concert.

The second guest I work their autograph line for was Junichi Suwabe, a Japanese voice actor who is currently voicing the lead character in Space Dandy.  His lead did get capped and I ended up being the individual that held slips of papers that attendees could fill out if they wanted a personalized autograph; this was a rather smart idea in my opinion since there was a clear language barrier.  This line moved rather efficiently and the highlight had to be the fact that he cosplayed as Dandy and there was Meow cosplayer on-hand for photographs too.

By the time the Suwabe line cleared, I was well over my scheduled shift time and I had yet to check into my hotel room and my next shift was scheduled to start in just over an hour-and-a-half.  Also, I hadn’t eaten anything yet aside from a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.

After settling into my room, grabbing a quick bite to eat at Chick-Fil-A and returning to the convention just in time for my shift, I was assigned to Events for badge check duty for the premiere of the English-dubbed version of the second season of High School DxD, but before that took place; I needed to relieve someone at the Highlands(?) panel room until it was time for me to work the Grand Panel room.

When I arrived at Highlands, the Yuko Minaguchi panel was just wrapping up and Ms. Minaguchi, the Japanese voice actress for Sailor Saturn in Sailor Moon S, was preparing to take some photographs with some of the attendees of her panel.  The next panel on tap was a panel about Marvel anime series, but I did not stick around too long since I had another assignment to tend to.  And here is where the fun began for me on Friday evening.

In truth, badge check duty is simple and rather monotonous unless it turns out that the premiere you are working at is for anime series in which the American production company sends the uncensored version of the series and fails to mention it to the convention organizers and you have already let a number of minors into the screening (d’oh)!  Fortunately, there were no complaints that I know of and too be honest; I don’t expect any to be made.

Now, the real fun began as the time drew closer to karaoke and the people were beginning to line up—at this point, I had already organized the line for another anime world premiere and now, it was time to organize an even bigger line.  In truth (and you may call me a bit of a glutton for punishment for it), the real fun occurs when there is a complete lapse in communications between two departments and you and your department get thrown under the wheels of the bus (it was Touhou all over again for me).  Anyway, we had received two sets of directions: (1) karaoke participants could go ahead and enter the room and wait for High School DxD to clear and then (2) everyone needed to clear out and a line needed to be formed immediately outside of the registration area.  Of course, there is nothing like contradictory directives to create chaos, but my partner and I did the damn thing, made it work and got everyone inside and out of registration’s hair.

And like with my previous shift, I ran over my scheduled time (which will be a recurring theme), but I clocked out at 10 PM and checked out a bit of Anime Hell before grabbing a late dinner and calling it a night.

On a side note, I have a feeling that if I am back next year to work AWA; I’ll be getting my own room because I don’t know if I can deal with roommates, especially, roommates that are loud and obnoxious at terrible hours of the night.

So, this has recap has gone on for way too long and I have only covered one day of it.  I suppose I am going to have to cut it here and come back later to recap the rest of my con.  Until then, stay safe and don’t forget to be awesome!

Year 1, Day 92

Today is the day.  Today is the first day of Anime Weekend Weekend.  Come noon, anime otaku from across Georgia and the Southeastern United States will converge in Smyrna for a weekend of fun and excitement (or so we hope).  Of course, rather than sleeping, I have decided to procrastinate in my preparations and instead update my iPhone and post this update.  I will admit that I am a bit anxious yet at the same time I am assured and confident that the weekend will be good (it always is). A few things occurred today, but I believe I am going to put my blinders on and focus instead on the convention.

Following the convention, I can focus on the other things at hand like a two-night training seminar in Bainbridge (a 4.5-hour drive from HQ), establishing my staff council agenda, and so forth.  Anyway, I hope to be able to keep up to date while at the convention, but it will most likely be on my tumblr site:  johnpast30.tumblr.com. I have a long night and weekend ahead of me, but maybe I will see you on the otherside.

Year 1, Day 91

It's been awhile since I last struggled with falling asleep but here I am struggling to fall asleep. My updates have become more sporadic over the past few weeks and I have no one to blame but me. Anyway, a quick update and then I'll try to fall asleep again: Anime Weekend Atlanta is tomorrow and while it'll be a nice break; I'm beginning to wonder if it might be more trouble than it's worth. I might try to do some posting while at the convention but it will most likely be on Tumble.

Well, I better try to get to sleep now.

Year 1, Day 87

It seems as thought my grand experiment with Swift Type is over for now because of an issue I can't seem to find a solution to.

Anyway, Manchester United were humiliated by newly promoted side Leicester.

The Atlanta Braves were eliminated from postseason contention.

And the Carolina Panthers are embarrassing themselves on Sunday Night Football.

The only team that won were the Georgia Bulldogs, but they were playing Troy State.

Year 1, Day 86

I'm posting from my iPhone again but today is slightly different because I'm using this new app that allows me to type by simply sliding my fingers around the keyboard. I'm still not that good with it but I'm slowly getting the hang of it and it's actually really fun. There's a few things that take getting used to but I'm sure that I'll get it before too soon. Anyway I've been slacking in the posting department but I hope to get back in the swing of things sooner rather than later. I'm less than a week away from Anime Weekend Atlanta and too be honest the biggest concern for me is whether or not I want to add a night prior to or following the convention. I know that I don't have the money either way but I'm at the point where I am just going to say screw it and I'll worry about it later. I hate that I have to live in perpetual debt but that's my life and I'll have to clean it up after the fact. A lot of things have been happening in my life as of late and I may eventually get around to discussing it sooner or later but it isn't happening today.

Year 1, Day 83

I'm getting screwed by the GADOR over my tax filings in 2010. This puts an incredible strain on my already tight budget, but I'll figure it out in the end.

Year 1, Day 82

Quick Shots:

I'm not sure where I stand on the Adrian Peterson issue.

The Braves are bad and the name of the new stadium is even worse: SunTrust Stadium.

Year 1, Day 81

Quick Shots:

YES, Danny Ferry and the scout that wrote that analysis of Luol Deng should be fired. Then again, I hate the owners of the Hawks and think they should all go away.

YES, I do believe that Manchester United can finish in the top four of the Premier League. Hell, if they play like they did against QPR, then they can win the title.

Anyway, that's all for now. Bye

Year 1, Day 80

I'm lazy.

I know this fact and I do nothing.

I'm irresponisible and I do nothing.

For the life of me, I cannot figure out a means of motivating myself to achieve anything.

Look at this site for example--it's rubbish!

The updates are infrequent, the layout is amateurish, and the lack of topics is just confusing.

I want to be better, but it is so difficult for me.

Year 1, Day 77

It seems as though the only time I post from an actual desktop is when I am at the library and even then I have to be wary of the possible issues that may arrive from posting updates from my place of employment. It is not as though I am posting anything inappropriate, but I (see yesterday's update) tend to vent personal frustrations stemming from the workplace.  So, in order to avoid any personal issues, I thought I would take this opportunity to write about some other issues that have me thinking.

Ray Rice - This guy is dirty and if he does not ever play in the league again, it is of his own doing and his wife should realize that fact.  Of course, if Roger Goodell stays on as commissioner of the league; he will be suiting up next season for Dan Snyder and the team from Washington D.C. with the derogatory name and it would be a perfect fit.

Roger Goodell - This man is trash. With Goodell, it is profit over people and following this debacle with Rice; he needs to go.

Now, I know given my statements yesterday, I sound like a hypocrite and I admit it.  But, I would never strike a women (unless for some reason, I was forced to in a sanctioned boxing or MMA fight, but that's not happening anytime soon).  Believe it or not, I do believe in the feminist movement and I believe in treating women in a manner they deserve.

I understand that I have a long ways to go to improve myself, but I am trying.

Year 1, Day 76

I have to make this quick since I lost track of time watching YouTube videos.

Anyways, here's what I've got:

1) I'm pretty sure that I hate that co-worker that I thought I loved. Yes, it does seem a rather extreme route to take for getting over something, but fuck it. She's a bitch--not for never returning my feelings but because she's a two-faces bitch.

2) I came up with an equation that explains my attitude (okay, maybe I didn't come up with up but who cares): give a fuck minus give a fuck equals zero fucks given.

3) This post may actually run longer than I thought since I actually have some shit to talk about today.

4) I'm cussing a lot in today's post, but who the fuck cares? Nobody reads this shit anyways.

5) I love Hannah Hart, but no way is she funnier than Ryan Higa and crew. Just saying, but I do enjoy both their channels immensely.

6) There are some really ignorant motherfuckers in this world and sadly, some come through my workplace.

I think that's enough for tonight and I hope I won't forget to post tomorrow.

Year 1, Day 74

Farewell Monday.

I paid off the rest of my auto insurance.

I prepared lunch and then forgot it, but the bacon cheese Krystal burgers were good because of the ratio of bacon to Krystal patty; ill that I had to pay for lunch.

There's more but I can't be bothered at this moment.

Year 1, Day 73

The first weekend of fantasy football is well underway and following the day's happening: it looks as though I'm on my to win.

I cut the grass and helped my aunt get her CPR/First Aid certification renewed. I'm beat.

Year 1, Day 71

I have waited too long once more and now, I am tired.  But, to be honest, I am certain that I had little of importance to speak on.

As I mentioned yesterday, my plans for Dragon Con 2015 have been set and it is going to set my budget for the next year.

Simply reserving a room of the host hotels has given me such a greater appreciation of the affordability of "my" convention, Anime Weekend Atlanta.

I suppose it is a good thing that we have decided to go ahead with this plan because it gives me an entire year to properly plan and save.

As of now, I am waiting on my new credit card to arrive so that I can go ahead and pay for the remainder of my car insurance bill, pay for a four-day Dragon Con membership and pay for the hotel for this year's AWA.

Perhaps, I should consider taking up a hermit lifestyle.

Year 1, Day 70

I know that I have yet to write anything formal about my day at Dragon Con, but that post will have to wait as I have yet to upload any of my photographs from that day.  I will say that planning for Dragon Con 2015 is underway and we already have a room booked at the Hyatt.

A quick update to yesterday's post, I am feeling much better after I finally got some sleep--my head is clear and my eyes are no longer running.  I was afraid that I might have finally needed to use Sick Leave, but I was able to avoid it.

Another topic that I yet to discuss in-depth was Manchester United's transfer period transactions.  So, here we go:

• The jury is still out on Ander Herrera since he has been injured for the most part during this early part of the season.
• I think we overpaid for Luke Shaw, but that tends to happen in England for English players.
• Is Marco Rojo even going to get a chance to put on his United kit?
• Angel Di Maria while talented and certainly a positive addition to United was not worth the amount that United paid for him.
• Daley Blind could be a something special, especially, since he will be working under Louis Van Gaal, his former national team coach.
• Radamel Falcao was a remarkable coup for United, but his arrival signaled the departures of Chicharito and Danny Welbeck (Welbeck's departure was personal gut check and decisive end to any claims that United is capable of developing talent through its academy).

I suppose LVG has a plan, but his plan apparently, does not involve addressing the side's needs in central defense or midfield.  Now, do not get things twisted--I will remain loyal to the Red Devils--I'm just interested in seeing where all of this spending take the club.

Year 1, Day 69

Feeling rather ill at the moment. Going to try and rest now. See you tomorrow?

Year 1, Day 68

The first day back from any extended period of closure is difficult. For one reason or another, our patrons fail to grasp the concept of: "You're books will never be due on a day in which the library is closed." I could further complain about the ignorance of our patrons, but what would be the point? No matter how much you publicize a closure, there will still be those that will remain ignorant of it. If I sound annoyed, it is because I am, but not for the reasons implied in my preceding sentences. I'm annoyed at my ongoing financial struggles--annoyed at the fact this could have been avoided if only I had some restraint. Honestly, it's not my desire to be so whiny, but we all need to vent my frustrations and this is the medium I have chosen.

Year 1, Day 67

I'm disappointed with United's decision to not only sell off Danny Welbeck, a lifelong supporter of the club and an academy product, but to sell him to a league rival, Arsenal.

I know that following the signings of Di Maria and Falcao there was no longer a place for him within United's attack, but why make a move for Falcao when what the side needed was a central defender?

Yes, Falcao is a remarkably talented goal scorer, but he is coming off a major knee injury that not only ended his club season early last year but hampered his role at the World Cup.

I suppose the attack was lacking and there is a possibly that RVP may have his own major knee procedure, but it still irks me. Perhaps, because I want to believe that United are above just buying a side a la City.

But, I am wrong and I need to face the fact that days of youth academy development is no longer a critical part of the plans for clubs as large United.

Year 1, Day 66

Dragon Con has come and gone (for me) and despite a costly mistake and some poor decisions in regards to events and panels; it was a fun event and I'm really looking forward to next year.

I managed to take a few photographs, but I spent the vast majority of my phone's battery life during the parade, which meant I was hovering around 20-30% for much of the day.

I want to do a bit more in-depth post later.

Year 1, Day 64

Tomorrow is Dragon Con and for now, I must rest.

Year 1, Day 62

The struggle never ends. And yes, my struggles my seem trite and petty, but they are mine and I have to handle it as best as I can. I struggle to make ends meet, but it isn't because of some grave misfortune that befallen me; it's because I'm irresponsible.

I struggle with weight issues, malaise in the workplace and many other personal issues. I get by though. I'm okay and I'm clearly tired. Sorry, these recent updates have been terrible, but fatigue wears me down and leaves me less cognizant of others.

Year 1, Day 61

Another quick update since I just got back in from yet another trip to the hospital. My grandfather who only just recently got out after a week long stay was back in after a fainting spell following his dialysis treatment earlier today.

He seems in good spirits and hopefully, he'll be discharged after a few days. Anyway, that's it for now.

Year 1, Day 60

From only one full episode, I've a feeling that I'm going to really like Peter Capaldi as the Twelfth Doctor.

That is all.

Year 1, Day 59

Rule 1: The Doctor lies.

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Rule 1.000...0006261983: I lie.

I promised a write up on Deep Breath, the series premiere of Doctor Who, but instead you get LIES! Sorry.

Year 1, Day 58

I'm not sure what happened last night, but I was completely out of it not long after I returned home.

Needless to say, but today's update will be short too because of Doctor Who, but I promise to share my two cents on the series eight premiere as well as my initial response to the new Doctor tomorrow. 

Year 1, Day 56

So, apparently, there is a porn parody of Doctor Who called Docto Whore. Really?

Year 1, Day 55

I lied.  I'm still drafting updates via the Blogger iOS app, which is convenient.

Yes, I miss formatting updates to please my own aesthetic preferences, but it's a comfortable convenience.

Anyway, I suppose I should discuss my day or something along those lines.

Today was Salad Day for the staff at HQ and since I'm inept at cooking; I brought ice for drinks.

Despite it being Salad Day, I still avoided greens not smothered in cheese or meat.

I'm slowly learning that I don't like our new IT director and I suppose that's because he mistreats my coworkers.

Anyway, I found myself struggling to set aside the distraction in Youth Services. I know it's for the best and after nearly two years of unrequited feelings; I decided that I had enough of it.

I don't know why it is so difficult, but I do that it's for the best.

Year 1, Day 54

Things have settled.

I had a moment today to simply sit and watch some Netflix; I watched Harlock: Space Pirate.

I'm not sure if I'll do a formal #SMR since I watched it at home, but I'll say that I did enjoy it; the animation is truly beautiful.

I sort of relaxed today after work despite being there past my time.

There are still many things happening in this world, but sometimes you just have to shut things down and relax.

Hopefully, I will get back to using the PC for posting because phone tapping isn't the best way of drafting updates.

Year 1, Day 53

I give up (for now)! I thought about drafting a update about Ferguson, MO, but is too much of a pain to draft a good post on my phone. So, it will have to wait till another time.

Year 1, Day 52

Is it necessary to post an update simply to post an update, especially, if nothing's being said?

Oh well, I guess I'll need to figure that out at a later time.

Year 1, Day 51 - #ShiteMovieReview 02

Despite my apprehension, I decided to see Michael Bay's Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle.  I say "Michael Bay's TMNT" because this is certainly not the TMNT from my childhood.  If I were a child, I may have enjoyed this movie some, but I am not a child and I am highly sensitive toward any attempts to bastardize parts of my childhood.  I'll be frank--there were a few moments where I laughed and there were a few moments in which I was drawn into the action sequences, but these were few and far in between.  Also, I will admit that I may not have given this movie a fair shake because of my preconceived notions, but I wanted to be wrong; I was right.  So, was this movie worth the price of admission ($8 matinee)?

No, it was not.  In fact, if you must watch this film (e.g., you are a parent and you have a child), then wait until it comes out on Netflix (or Redbox, if this movie doesn't become available via a streaming service that you pay a monthly rate for). 

Year 1, Day 50, Part II

Is this personal journal or an online soap box?  I don’t know.  While the basic idea of this site is to serve as an everlasting digital chronicle of my life, I also have opinions that need to be expressed not because my opinions have any value beyond this site, but because I need to simply get them off my chest.  Tonight, I’m in the mood share my opinions and I because I promised multiple updates, here we go:

What’s happened/happening in Ferguson, MO is absurd. A young, unarmed black man is gun-downed by a police officer and it takes nearly a week before the police name the officer responsible and when they finally make a statement on the matter; the police attempt to (1) justify the officer’s actions and (2) assassinate the character of the victim.  In case the authorities were wondering, it’s not the potential cause of the incident that has people protesting on the streets; it’s the fact that an unarmed man was shot to death.  Of course, law enforcement officials have done little to alleviate the situation, especially, when one sees reports of the use of aggressive force against protesters and the unwarranted arrests of two journalists covering the events in Ferguson.  Sadly, this is just another incident in a series of incidents.  Perhaps, I’ll expand upon my opinion in a future update, but for now, one can only hope that some semblance of justice will prevail.

And now, for something much more positive:  the Barclays Premier League returns tomorrow!  Manchester United and Swansea City kick off the new season at 7:45 AM/EDT.  For United supporters, it’s the start of yet another new era as Louis Van Gaal will look to rebuild and return the squad to glory.

Anyway, I feel like this has drug on long enough and while I did promise a new #ShiteMovieReview; it may need to wait till tomorrow or Sunday.